Michael Glatze Comes Out … of Homosexuality

The editor of Young Gay America is no longer gay. I’m reminded of a line in the UK version of Queer as Folk. Stuart, on discovering that a business client with a wife and three kids wants to go to a gay club, his response is “Jesus Christ, is there no-one straight left?”. I think my response to this story is “How many people who still think sexual attraction is biologically fixed are left”? Read it all.

My mom died when I was 19. My father had died when I was 13. At an early age, I was already confused about who I was and how I felt about others. My confusion about “desire” and the fact that I noticed I was “attracted” to guys made me put myself into the “gay” category at age 14. At age 20, I came out as gay to everybody else around me. Homosexuality came easy to me, because I was already weak.

At age 22, I became an editor of the first magazine aimed at a young, gay male audience. It bordered on pornography in its photographic content, but I figured I could use it as a platform to bigger and better things. Sure enough, Young Gay America came around. It was meant to fill the void that the other magazine I’d worked for had created – namely, anything not-so-pornographic, aimed at the population of young, gay Americans. Young Gay America took off.

Gay people responded happily to Young Gay America. It received awards, recognition, respectability and great honors, including the National Role Model Award from major gay organization Equality Forum – which was given to Canadian Prime Minister Jean Chrétien a year later – and a whole host of appearances in the media, from PBS to the Seattle Times, from MSNBC to the cover story in Time magazine. I produced, with the help of PBS-affiliates and Equality Forum, the first major documentary film to tackle gay teen suicide, “Jim In Bold,” which toured the world and received numerous “best in festival” awards. Young Gay America created a photo exhibit, full of photographs and stories of gay youth all across the North American continent, which toured Europe, Canada and parts of the United States. Young Gay America launched YGA Magazine in 2004, to pretend to provide a “virtuous counterpart” to the other newsstand media aimed at gay youth.

I say “pretend” because the truth was, YGA was as damaging as anything else out there, just not overtly pornographic, so it was more “respected.” It took me almost 16 years to discover that homosexuality itself is not exactly “virtuous.” It was difficult for me to clarify my feelings on the issue, given that my life was so caught up in it. Homosexuality, delivered to young minds, is by its very nature pornographic. It destroys impressionable minds and confuses their developing sexuality; I did not realize this, however, until I was 30 years old.

YGA Magazine sold out of its first issue in several North American cities. There was extreme support, by all sides, for YGA Magazine; schools, parent groups, libraries, governmental associations, everyone seemed to want it. It tapped right into the zeitgeist of “accepting and promoting” homosexuality, and I was considered a leader. I was asked to speak on the prestigious JFK Jr. Forum at Harvard’s Kennedy School of Government in 2005.

It was, after viewing my words on a videotape of that “performance,” that I began to seriously doubt what I was doing with my life and influence. Knowing no one who I could approach with my questions and my doubts, I turned to God; I’d developed a growing relationship with God, thanks to a debilitating bout with intestinal cramps caused by the upset stomach-inducing behaviors I’d been engaged in. Soon, I began to understand things I’d never known could possibly be real, such as the fact that I was leading a movement of sin and corruption – which is not to sound as though my discovery was based on dogma, because decidedly it was not. I came to the conclusions on my own. It became clear to me, as I really thought about it – and really prayed about it – that homosexuality prevents us from finding our true self within. We cannot see the truth when we’re blinded by homosexuality.

We believe, under the influence of homosexuality, that lust is not just acceptable, but a virtue. But there is no homosexual “desire” that is apart from lust. In denial of this fact, I’d fought to erase such truth at all costs, and participated in the various popular ways of taking responsibility out of human hands for challenging the temptations of lust and other behaviors. I was sure – thanks to culture and world leaders – that I was doing the right thing. Driven to look for truth, because nothing felt right, I looked within. Jesus Christ repeatedly advises us not to trust anybody other than Him. I did what He said, knowing that the Kingdom of God does reside in the heart and mind of every man.

What I discovered – what I learned – about homosexuality was amazing. How I’d first “discovered” homosexual desires back in high school was by noticing that I looked at other guys. How I healed, when it became decidedly clear that I should – or risk hurting more people – is that I paid attention to myself. Every time I was tempted to lust, I noticed it, caught it, dealt with it. I called it what it was, and then just let it disappear on its own. A huge and vital difference exists between superficial admiration – of yourself, or others – and integral admiration. In loving ourselves fully, we no longer need anything from the “outside” world of lustful desire, recognition from others, or physical satisfaction. Our drives become intrinsic to our very essence, unbridled by neurotic distractions. Homosexuality allows us to avoid digging deeper, through superficiality and lust-inspired attractions – at least, as long as it remains “accepted” by law. As a result, countless miss out on their truest self, their God-given Christ-self.

Homosexuality, for me, began at age 13 and ended – once I “cut myself off” from outside influences and intensely focused on inner truth – when I discovered the depths of my God-given self at age 30. God is regarded as an enemy by many in the grip of homosexuality or other lustful behavior, because He reminds them of who and what they truly are meant to be. People caught in the act would rather stay “blissfully ignorant” by silencing truth and those who speak it, through antagonism, condemnation and calling them words like “racist,” “insensitive,” “evil” and “discriminatory.”

Healing from the wounds caused by homosexuality is not easy – there’s little obvious support. What support remains is shamed, ridiculed, silenced by rhetoric or made illegal by twisting of laws. I had to sift through my own embarrassment and the disapproving “voices” of all I’d ever known to find it. Part of the homosexual agenda is getting people to stop considering that conversion is even a viable question to be asked, let alone whether or not it works. In my experience, “coming out” from under the influence of the homosexual mindset was the most liberating, beautiful and astonishing thing I’ve ever experienced in my entire life. Lust takes us out of our bodies, “attaching” our psyche onto someone else’s physical form. That’s why homosexual sex – and all other lust-based sex – is never satisfactory: It’s a neurotic process rather than a natural, normal one. Normal is normal – and has been called normal for a reason. Abnormal means “that which hurts us, hurts normal.” Homosexuality takes us out of our normal state, of being perfectly united in all things, and divides us, causing us to forever pine for an outside physical object that we can never possess. Homosexual people – like all people – yearn for the mythical true love, which does actually exist.

The problem with homosexuality is that true love only comes when we have nothing preventing us from letting it shine forth from within. We cannot fully be ourselves when our minds are trapped in a cycle and group-mentality of sanctioned, protected and celebrated lust. God came to me when I was confused and lost, alone, afraid and upset. He told me – through prayer – that I had nothing at all to be afraid of, and that I was home; I just needed to do a little house cleaning in my mind. I believe that all people, intrinsically, know the truth. I believe that is why Christianity scares people so much. It reminds them of their conscience, which we all possess. Conscience tells us right from wrong and is a guide by which we can grow and become stronger and freer human beings. Healing from sin and ignorance is always possible, but the first thing anyone must do is get out of the mentalities that divide and conquer humanity. Sexual truth can be found, provided we’re all willing and driven to accept that our culture sanctions behaviors that harm life. Guilt should be no reason to avoid the difficult questions.

Homosexuality took almost 16 years of my life and compromised them with one lie or another, perpetuated through national media targeted at children. In European countries, homosexuality is considered so normal that grade-school children are being provided “gay” children’s books as required reading in public schools. Poland, a country all-too familiar with the destruction of its people by outside influences, is bravely attempting to stop the European Union from indoctrinating its children with homosexual propaganda. In response, the European Union has called the prime minister of Poland “repulsive.” I was repulsive for quite some time; I am still dealing with all of my guilt.

As a leader in the “gay rights” movement, I was given the opportunity to address the public many times. If I could take back some of the things I said, I would. Now I know that homosexuality is lust and pornography wrapped into one. I’ll never let anybody try to convince me otherwise, no matter how slick their tongues or how sad their story. I have seen it. I know the truth. God gave us truth for a reason. It exists so we could be ourselves. It exists so we could share that perfect self with the world, to make the perfect world. These are not fanciful schemes or strange ideals – these are the Truth. Healing from the sins of the world will not happen in an instant; but, it will happen – if we don’t pridefully block it. God wins in the end, in case you didn’t know.

6 Comments on “Michael Glatze Comes Out … of Homosexuality

  1. As I’ve said elsewhere, I wish Michael Glatze had spoken from experience about his own homosexuality and sin, rather than generalizing and oversimplifying the homosexualities and true loves of all. God does give us truth, but Glatze does not own or monopolize truth, nor can he legitimately speak for God — to do so is blasphemy.

    My hope is that, in seeking validation for his own experience and his own past choices, Mr. Glatze will eventually validate the experiences of former ex-gays.

  2. I’m an Orthodox Side B’er (you know what that is, Peter!), and I wouldn’t be surprised if sexuality is at least partially genetic. If I had to make a bet, I would say it is mostly genetic.

    But, of course, this is irrelevant to orthodox Christian sexuality. Whether genetic or not, homosexual sex is sin. And genetic doesn’t mean people can’t change their sexuality. Small miracles like unexplained cures from cancer happen all the time, so change is within the realm of possibility. However, small miracles don’t happen all the time, so people may be unable to change, which is okay. They just have to bear the cross. It would help to recall that there are needless to say all sorts of heavier crosses, not the least of which is dealing with an ingrained tendency towards pedophilia.

  3. “But, of course, this is irrelevant to orthodox Christian sexuality”

    Apparently Michael Glatze was baptized by the LDS, so I’m not sure if he goes along with the orthodox Christian sexuality.

  4. It’s now starting to appear that Glatze’s story might involve both Jesus AND the LDS Church… Warren’s currently doing a series of interviews with Glatze. Let’s wait and see what he says in those.

  5. “It’s now starting to appear that Glatze’s story might involve both Jesus AND the LDS Church… ”

    If that’s the case, then this just makes me even more wary of believing in his conversion from being an advocate for gays to being virulently anti-gay. Christianity and LDS are extremely different, and if he is going from one to the other so quickly (after only being baptized in LDS back in this May) then I think he is not at a place right now where he is sure of what he is saying or how he feels.

  6. What Mike really needs to do is to come out with the truth about himself and Benjie using the YGA thing as a cover for their XTC binges and sex with boys under 18…
    This clown and his former partner were guests in my home during the time that they were traveling the country interviewing queer youth. During their stay, and through emails after they had returned home, they tried to convince me that it was “our duty and our right as gay men to have sex with boys as young as 14 and show them how wonderful and beautiful sex can be.”
    They also spent a good amount of time talking up XTC and saying that it is not bad for you and that our government spreads lies about the drug so that people won’t do it and see how great it is.
    I think that Mike ate one too many beans and is dealing with the guilt of having had sex with young gay men who he should have been helping instead.
    Would love to talk to Mike and ask him when he is going to repent for that…

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