New blogger Matthew Franklin Jones talks about the need to share your story.
A major weakness of American (conservative) Christianity has been the tendency to respond to LGBTQ people and their stories with bloodless dogma. LGBTQ people are often kept at a distance, which I guess is what makes it so easy for some Christians to fire away with their sniper rifles of â€œtruth-telling.â€ So long as there is distance, beliefs can remain undisturbed and comfortable.
But I want those Christians to know that I brush legs with them as I slide into the row. I shake their hand or hug them as we pass the peace of Christ. I share the communion cup and broken bread. We are one body.
There is no distance.
Contrary to common pulpit rhetoric, there is no LGBTQ â€œthey.â€ If I want the American Church to come to its senses and realize that this isnâ€™t something that is â€œout there,â€ I shouldÂ stand up.Â And if I want the American Church to understandÂ that if it focuses primarily on espousing ideologies and abstract generalizations it will damage and drive away the very real and very vulnerable people sitting in its pews, I shouldÂ speak up. The fear that kept me rooted to my seat and tight-lipped prevented me from fully caring for my brothers and sisters. I simply cannot be passive anymore.
Churches move slowly, but my physical presence makes it harder for them to drag their feet or speak brashly. At my own church the fallout from my testimony,Â which wasnâ€™t pretty, ultimately resulted in the elder board getting together and hashing out what they actually believed about sexuality and how they should respond to gay peopleÂ in their congregation;Â a very good thing. That experience, as painful as it was, is when I became convinced that I needed to stop being closeted.
Because this isnâ€™t just about me. There are still countless men and women whose knuckles turn white when the pastor mentions homosexuality because, suddenly, heâ€™s talking about them, who feel like they are walking this path alone and are haunted by anxiety that someone may discover their secret. I know they are there because Iâ€™veÂ beenÂ one of them.
I remember the incredible relief I felt when I found books or blogs written by people who shared that piece of my story, and it is a privilege to be a part of someone elseâ€™s journey toward wholeness.
I want them to know peace. And the only way they will know that peace is if their church body becomes a community of grace dedicated to loving them and listening to them, understanding that the life ahead of them will certainly not always be easy, and committing to be there for them each step of the way.
This is what the Church should always be for everyone â€“ and Iâ€™ve found being out gives me the blessed opportunity to remind it of this calling.
And, lastly, living out of the closet as a celibate, gay Christian gives me the opportunity to speak to a world that has lost its mind when it comes to sex and relationships. The culture at large (including the Church) has drunk deep the lie that sexual activity is essential to being human and that true joy or flourishing are impossible to find outside of a romantic relationship. My existence, the fact that Iâ€™m more passionate and excited about life than Iâ€™ve ever beenÂ withoutÂ being â€œgiftedâ€ for celibacy (justâ€¦ just trust me on that), stands as a modest counterpoint to an off-balance world.